EUDIO: IC INBOX

[harrisonwells]

"This is Dr. Harrison Wells. Leave a message. A relevant message."

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[harrisonwells]

[Harrison doesn't say a word, doesn't even try to interrupt. Doesn't even move. What is there for him to say? Harrison does care about Barry, he wants him to be safe, comfortable, happy, but he knows it doesn't seem like it anymore. And that's his fault.

If he was a good man, he'd apologize. Right now. Tell Barry he'd asked him here because he wanted to confess what he'd done and tell him he was never doing it again. But that's the part that would be a lie. Not right away, he could hold out for a time, distract himself, ignore the texts that arrive at three in the morning. Avoid, avoid, avoid. He could do that for a while.

But he's selfish. And greedy. And it's been a long time, possibly years, since he's had someone he could call a peer. He's not ready to let that go yet. Maybe he should be, if he was a better man maybe he would be, but he's not.]

I know. I don't...want to make you feel anything, Barry, I don't have the right to do that, I don't have the right to expect you to feel one way or another about this, I just want to be honest with you. And if you think that's me manipulating you, then I'm sorry to add that to everything else.

[metre]

( and that's what barry wants, maybe unfairly, to hear i'm sorry i hurt you and i won't do it again, and it isn't lost on him that it's something harrison doesn't apologize for. the deception, the betrayal. that he thought to tell barry instead of keeping it a secret helps, a bit -- at least now he won't be hopelessly pining for him, won't be reaching to touch him without knowing this other layer added onto their relationship. because it is, even if it doesn't involve barry. everything with eobard involves him, they're the reverses of each other. )

Then you knew it was a choice. ( because, like harry said, a lot of things aren't fair. and barry is feeling particularly cruel, in a way that he will regret later but can't right now, instinct just telling him to hurt this man as much as he hurt him. ) And you chose him.

( the bad guy. the one that can give something barry can't.

barry doesn't think he really believes that, that harrison chose him. but in his head, right now and in this moment, he does. if another representative came to him right now and asked for a new incentive, he'd say i just want to be less lonely. )

I hope you're happy with your decision.

( and then he's gone, in one emotional burst of sorrow and lightning, causing a brief uproar in harrison's house. )

[harrisonwells]

[He still doesn't move, even when the burst of speed disrupts the room in a way Barry is usually more careful to avoid. The papers settle slowly, and when the only sound in the room is his ragged breaths, he pushes off the wall and collects a bottle and a glass on his way out the back door to the beach.

He leaves his phone inside. On silent. There's no one he wants to talk to right now.]